Here i am

oh this heat.. i woke up at 3 am... opened the fridge for some cold water bottle. water didn't seem to quench the thirst... went out for a walk but still no relief.. this heat has not spared me even at night.. how will i sleep again??? how will i wake up early in the morning??? i felt miserable. wanted some angel to appear out of no where and put an end to all this. but as you know.. we are mango people.. miracles don't happen with us.


with due courage i went back inside and tried to sleep.. but couldn't .. all sorts of thoughts appeared in my mind.. i was neutral.. couldn't decide whether all the current events in my life are bringing happiness in my life or should i be sad... recently i became " mama" that means my elder sis gave birth to one of the cutest baby boy i have ever seen. my father bought me a car... life is all well.. so i smiled...

but all of a sudden i realized there is more to it.. i didn't qualify for some of the best colleges that i had applied to. I have an important phase of my life ending in a few days and a lot others... the smile disappeared like water in a desert..


i still lie here.. waiting for cool breeze come out of no where and gimme some relief and sleep.. yet still confused whether to be happy or sad about my life...

How ironical that whenever a person is all alone and at peace.. he tries to think about whats going on in his life... his future..